still trying to try

not another black life
not another hashtag 
not another think-piece
not another protest
not another march

i am fucking tired
we are tired
still trying: 
to not be tired
to be okay
to process trauma
to process 400 years and counting
of systematic/sanctioned/structured violence
enacted upon black bodies
still trying to try
to be okay

still trying to try
to imagine an otherwise life and world
possibility
freedom

still trying to try
to be okay
to imagine
freedom 
and black joy
black love
black life
reimagined 
reproduced

still trying to try
to be okay


a thought/work-in-progress by jamal lewis
© 2015